I've had a lot of time to think....

Most of my friends know that along with my best friend Kevin, I'm taking my classes online at home. School consists of only a few hours for me and then I'm finished. Usually with nothing to do, so this has given me a lot of time to think. In the past year, I have changed a LOT. But for the better. I think some of it has to do with the school I went to. Pine Lake. Before Pine Lake, I attended my town's elementary, intermediate and middle school. It was difficult for me. I had a lot of friends and I was popular and I was on the cheerleading team but the other cheerleaders would talk crap about me and make things up that weren't true. I never knew why and I never bothered to tell my parents but somehow they found out. The only people that wouldn't make fun of me were the people that I shouldn't have been hanging out with. My parents approached me about this and they told me the reason why the other cheerleaders were talking about me is because they were intimidated. I had the second highest score at tryouts and I was "pretty." I never believed them when they told me this because I didn't believe it myself. I could point out a number of things that were wrong with me, mainly because I was getting made fun of for it. I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety and mild anger last year. I can control it just fine but I always knew something was wrong with me because I would break down in tears when I would get made fun of.

I understand completely how most of you feel. If you look at my last post, "My Life - Lauryn Suda," you'll be able to read the beginning of my story. It's been extremely hard for me from the beginning. It still is. Bullying is something most everyone has to deal with. But most people deal with it on a much higher level than others. Some of us are bullies ourselves. I used to make fun of other people only because I believe in "what comes around goes around" and I wanted to make sure that it happened to them because they did it to me. But once I take the time to realize how painful it was for me when I got bullied, I can only imagine what they're going through. What YOUR going through. I've caught myself whenever I begin to make fun of people and I've begun to catch my friends in the act as well. Bullying is something that we can't avoid, but we can prevent it.
I'm here if anyone wants to talk! (:
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