Do you ever?

feel like no matter how many times you say okay or how many times you try to forget it always comes right back and makes you feel like shit? You cant completly let go of what your gut is telling you? Its the wosrt feeling in the world. Espicially since you have people depending on you too keep things the same and not say anything and just go with it. You ever feel like you've given up everything to make someone else happy? Your dignity, your trust, or evern your heart. Know people will read this and say this makes no sense you are suppose to talk about past expirences and stuff you need help with. But i cant just come out and say i need your help. I dont want to ask for help i want you to know i need it and help without making it noticeable. I dont want to feel like someone you have to "watch over" but i want you to know when im hurt or when im sad or when i need you to just hold my hand and say it is okay. I guess this is me reaching out for you to notice that i need you more than you know....alot more.